Changes are coming

I have been thinking…

… and I think I will go ahead and make some changes to this blog site. It will still be iggylife.com and Mignon’s Place, but I am going to use this medium as a way to document my learning.

You see, lately, I’ve had this nagging urge to learn about my family history. You know to understand where I come from. I mean I know where we’re from. We’re an immigrant family from the Philippines. But having moved here when I was 10 years old, there’s so much I’ve forgotten or don’t know about.

Not knowing makes me feel disconnected somehow.

I have a tight knit family — I’m not feeling that kind of disconnection. But a historical disconnect — I guess. I mean, how can I not know about the Country of my origin? It makes me feel bad. I’m even starting to lose the language a bit. I can still understand tagalog, but I’m noticing that I can’t translate English to Tagalog as quickly as I used to. I have to actually think about the word or phrase. It wasn’t like that before.

My background is a part of my legacy. Even though my boys are not interested in our history right now, someday they might be. And I want to leave them that information.

But before I can, I gotta relearn and discover the information for myself too.

Research, here I come!

Bucket List

I’ve been wanting to do this post for a while, but I kept hesitating. I don’t know why. Maybe because a part of me doesn’t really want to publicly broadcast a part of my dreams?

I don’t know. But it kept nagging at me and I couldn’t ignore it any longer, so here goes.

As of today, this is my Bucket List. It changes as I get other ideas, but that’s the fun thing about it. It evolves with me.

1. Travel–I want to go and visit the world’s beautiful libraries. I see pictures on Facebook all the time and every time I see one of these old libraries filled to the brim with books, it takes my breath away. I want to see a few in person and smell all those old books, and touch the books, and get lost wandering the aisles.

2. Zip line — I want to zip line at least once and feel what it’s like to fly. I’ve done a tandem parachute jump before and that was exhilarating! But I don’t think I could do it again. Going up 10,000 feet in the air and jumping out scares me now. LOL!

3. See an actual play or show on Broadway.

4. Family Tree — This doesn’t sound exciting, but it’s important to me. I want to complete a genealogy tree of my family. It would be fantastic, if I could complete both sides. But, the way it’s going right now, I can’t even get one side started. I might have to travel for this too.

5. Take a gondola ride in Venice, Italy. Not Las Vegas! LOL!

6. Learn to fly a helicopter 🙂

It’s a short list for now 🙂 I’m glad I did this. I had a smile on my face the whole time I was typing. It’s fun to dream and fun to share. I don’t know why I was scared about doing this post.

Keep dreaming my friends!

Angel Card

Oracle card Doreen Virtue
Oracle card
Doreen Virtue
Many people are very worried about the future. I would say that I belong in that group, but I also don’t want to get sucked up in the negativity and toxicity of what is happening.

I pledge for peace, light, and love.

Today, I was thinking, I’m sure there are a lot of other people out there feeling like me. In times of question, I’ve found comfort in my angel cards, so I decided to pull one for all of us.

Astara, is the card that came forth. Astara comes to us from one of Doreen Virtue’s oracle card collection.

The card says:

“You deserve the best! Reach for the stars with your dreams and desires, and don’t compromise.”

I think this card is perfect for what is happening. The angels are reminding that us that we are deserving. Now, and more than ever, we cannot compromise. We cannot give up on our dreams.

Continue to chase what makes you happy. Continue to go after those pursuits that make your soul sing with joy.

If everyone could achieve their goals, think about how much happier people would be. How much more fulfilled they would feel.

We create our reality. Create an awesome one for yourself.
Your angels are surrounding you, cheering you on.

Take care!

Kids

J0284916 I love my children. In fact, so much so that I would probably do just about anything for them. Having kids changed me as a person and the change was instantaneous. I went from the sheer agony of birthing the baby to pure, ecstatic love the moment my babies were placed in my arms.

Having kids made me realize that my heart had infinite capabilities for love.
Having kids made me realize the fierceness and protectiveness I never knew I had.

And now that my children are getting bigger (12 and 7), I often question my sanity and my capacity for “murder.” LOL! I have awesome kids. Both boys are affectionate, loving, confident, stubborn, and spirited. The energies that come off of them is in over abundance. At times the over-abundant energy is great, sometimes… not so much.

Me and the Hubs, we want to do right. We want to do our part to raise good boys who grow into good men. But, holy moley, there are times when these boys run us ragged. I’ve come to realize in these last few weeks of arguing and of tears that even when it seems like I can’t do it anymore, there is more, and I just have to dig deep.

I have to trust that what we’ve taught our boys so far is in there somewhere — floating around in their minds, amidst their ego driven desires to take over our house. Hahaha! One day, my husband and I may just give in and hand them the keys to the house, but not yet and not today. We all still have much to learn from each other and we’re all growing together as a family.

Despite the days of yelling and wondering what happened to my children’s brains, there is deep, deep love between all of us.

Having kids has made me question my sanity.
Having kids has given me the privileged of seeing what unconditional love truly looks like.

Fears

1419862788k6xq4 I should be writing my next book, but I’m finding that many things are getting in the way. I can say that I’m a busy wife and mom; that I have a lot of responsibilities; that I don’t have time, and whatever other reason comes to me at the time.

But truth is, my fear is keeping me from moving forward.

It’s like the picture on this post, but instead of me being one of the two people at the end of a dark street, I’m at the other end — looking ahead, but not taking a step to move. I’m too fearful of what may come at me. I’m too fearful of the things hiding in the shadows. I’m too fearful of the things I can’t see. (long sigh).

I’m doing something about it. Finally. I’ve mentioned before I’m re-evaluating and this is an area I’m working on. I realize that I may always be fearful. It’s just how I’m built. I’m a worrier. Everyone I know tells me so. But maybe I can learn to push through these fears and push beyond my comfort zone. I have to. How can I possibly expect the Universe to trust me with their gifts, when I can’t even trust myself?

It’s time to grow and evolve 🙂

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