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It’s all good

file000370427840 Lately, the Universe has been trying to tell me something. The good thing is that I’ve actually been listening.

You see, the last few years for me has been difficult to say the least. I was caught in a spin cycle of financial worries, health worries over family members, stress from the job, on and on and on. There have been many days, when I would just break down crying. I’m a tough cookie, but even I reached my limits. I felt defeated, beat up, and I couldn’t see a way out. My perspective on life got bleaker and bleaker.

Today, my situation is a little bit better, but the problems are not gone. They are still there, but what changed is me. I stopped fighting. I stopped chasing. I finally got it through my thick skull that I can’t prevent or undo certain things. God is mightier than I. Not that I ever thought I was, but in my stubbornness to do things my way, I was basically saying I was better than God! Sheez! I never realized I was such an ego-maniac. LOL!

After getting my bum whooped, I have chosen to trust, let go, and let God.

Since doing that I keep getting these messages that in the midst of darkness, brightness will come.
That I’ll be okay, but more than that, everything else will be okay. The lesson is that “it’s all good!” even when things seem like they can’t get any worse, there is a reason to trust and let go. Because in that difficulty, the other side is glory.

I’m taking a deep breath and I’m stepping back and allowing the Universe to help me. I’m opening up and letting go of the resistance to do things my way.

I have not seen the glory yet, but I’m already seeing the light break through the shadows I’ve been surrounded by for so long. It is all good and I believe it will keep getting better 🙂

Take care, don’t give up, and keep believing.
We are supported by infinite blessings. Sometimes, we just don’t understand the mode of transport for those blessing to reveal themselves.

Trusting and Letting Go

file221289486335 In my last post, I talked about letting go of my fears. I’m still working on that. Shedding something that has been a part of you for your whole life does not happen over night. It takes work and reminders everyday.

I catch myself constantly shrinking back and wanting to go to my safe place. Sometimes I can push through, sometimes I can’t. But I keep working at it. In this work, the other thing I’ve realized is that I have an issue with CONTROL. It makes sense really. If I can control everything, then I have nothing to fear. I think it goes hand in hand. When I feel in control, I have plans A through Z that will allow me to dodge any risks and dangers. I’m prepared. I’m ready. But the drawback is, I’m never relaxed. I’m always on the look out so that I can be ready to launch my “counter attack.”

Can you imagine, how exhausting this is? Believe me, when I say, it is terribly exhausting. Having the need to control is wearing me out physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and even chemically. It’s led to anxiety problems and physical pain. While I’m functional and can get through the day, every hour feels like survival.

I’ve had to start taking anti-depressants to help. I’m not ashamed to admit it. My perception that I needed to control everything, is leading me towards deterioration and I’m not ready to go there yet.

So now, I’m not only embracing my fears, but I’m learning to trust and ASK FOR HELP. This may seem stupid or weird to some, but asking for help, is extremely difficult for me. It’s connected to one of my fears — rejection. But I can’t do it alone anymore. Sure, I may still get rejected and seriously that would hurt me, but I’m pretty sure I’ll survive and get over it 🙂

The great thing about asking for help is that divine help is also available. Yesterday, I was having a moment and I let go… I gave my problems over to God. Typically, like everyone else, nothing happens, except that I feel a little better after having prayed about it. But yesterday, I got a message (an email with a phone number), I called back, and that call actually provided me some options to an issue I’ve been dealing with. It was great and I was provided with options I wasn’t aware of before. It was amazing. I felt instantly hopeful.

I asked and I got help. THANK YOU, GOD!!

Again, this is confirmation that I’m on the right path. I’m learning to be more aware and going back to gratitude even in the hardest times. It doesn’t mean, things don’t suck, but changing my perspective, letting go, and allowing miracles to happen is opening up my life. It will for you too 🙂

Take care.


Ay, ay, ay! 2015 kicked my butt! After the holidays were over, I couldn’t do much of anything. I had no energy, no motivation, no want to do anything whatsoever. I went into hibernation and much like my hairy animal counterpart, it took all winter for me to wake up. I think I needed it.

Now, my waking mind is wandering and it’s been good. I’m coming to some realizations that for the first time in my life, I’m ready to accept and ready to let go of. I’m an introvert. I think a lot. I know the things I do that are self-defeating, but I’ve never done anything in the past to change those things. Why? I don’t know. I always felt blocked, felt like even if I really wanted to… I couldn’t.

What changed? Nothing really, except perhaps my perception of where I am now. I figure if I’m lucky, I’ve lived about 1/2 of my life span. If I follow in the footsteps of my family, well… I may only have a good 20 years left. Anyways, what this really leads me to, is that life is precious and short and I can’t spend the rest of my life, regardless of how much time I have left, living in “fear.”

I’ve always taken the safe path. I’ve never been a risk taker. While my choices have gained me some accomplishments, I’ve never really achieved anything I thought was impossible. I’ve always set myself up to reach my goals. I only go for the things that I know, I’ll have success in. Doesn’t sound so bad, right? No, not really, but in some ways, it’s kept me mediocre. Blah. Invisible. Safe.

Where’s the fun in that?

So, lately I’ve been thinking that I have to release my fears and just go with the flow. I need to trust. I’ve been through some pretty tough times and I’ve survived. I’m a little tattered around the edges, but I’m better for it. So what do I have to fear? Well… actually plenty if I go with my analytical mind. But, if I learn to trust my heart and listen… then nothing. There’s nothing to fear.

Why did I title this post Confirmations? Because since this “letting go of fear” has been churning through my mind, I’ve been receiving confirming messages that tell me, I’m on the right path. I’m hearing the Universe again and it feels sooo good. I can see the light again and I’m looking forward to what living fearlessly will be like.

This is one of the confirmations that came to me. Anita Moorjani. Wow!